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hello out there [28 Feb 2007|12:45am]
[ mood | discontent ]

ah yes the great lj a place i have not vistied in quite some time. So I'm on vacation but its not that fun. My moms been like extemce amounts of flippy like everyday... it seems like impossible for us to get along now, we fight like every single day multiple times...it really sucks. I want to move out so badly but I can't I dont have a job and apparently noone wants me.... *sigh* whatever I guess i'll just suffer through it... i mean theres only a few months left of school... ugh but then itll be even worse cuz i'll be home more.... ugh!

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hello! [02 Feb 2007|03:30am]
[ mood | content ]

I havent been on here for quite some time so heres an update! Not much excitment going on. My play's done and over with so I have a 'life' again. I have hard classes this semester so I can't really goof off or sleep or anything....I mean the teachers are awsome but there all subjects that I actually have to pay attention to. well thats all I'm gonna write, I have to meet up with Matt in WOW. peace!

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hello people! [23 Dec 2006|11:20pm]
ahhhhhhhhhhh livejournal, such a place i have not seen in quite a long while.... yes, alicia has internet (for now) and in case you do not have amy space, or have not seen my bullitin, i desore screen names, so please give me yours. or IM me my name is Lamiedemorte and in case you don't speak french, it means friend of death. thank yaw.
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for some reason... [13 Jul 2006|06:36pm]
[ mood | cold ]

for some reason im like super angry today... like every little thing is pissing me off and like little things make me want to cry... I'm sposed to go to work tonight at McDonalds, but I really REALLY don't want to ... i'm afraid i might snap or something at a costumer you know? im gonna try and stay home, but i think my mom might force me to go....

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i have job(s) [08 Jul 2006|04:55pm]
[ mood | content ]

i know last time i said i got a job at delias, but geuss what?! they layed my ass off!!! but its okay cus now i got two new jobs, one's at a daycare center the others at the one place i swore id never work, McDonalds. (shivers in mild disgust) its okay though i geuss.... my frist night at mcd's was last night, i worked 4 to midnight, crazyness. yes it's the McDonalds in hudson across from walmart, so if your ever like driving around at night and your bored or hungry, stop by and say hi i spose. well peace!

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hello dear friends [17 Apr 2006|04:11pm]
[ mood | calm ]

I havent posted in forever and a year. Im in a really sad mood and this computer wont let me update myspace so im writing here. i just needed to write. Im like depressed or something today. I dont really know whats going on todays just not a really good day. I really miss matt... I havent seen him in over a week and ive been getting like really bad feelings like were gonna break up or womething and i really dont want that to happen. all this stuff is happening all just because i got a job. (i got a job at delias at the mall, so come visit me kay?) anyway im like wicked into emo music now. i tried writing like two emo songs last night. one actually turned out pretty good and im actually considering trying to record it sometime. i only have a kareoke machine and id have to do it on a tape, so itll prolly be bad sounding no matter what. the songs about matt. kind if. i imagined what it would be like if he got in a car accident and im waiting to see if hes okay. its really quite sad..... but ive been feeling sad lately so i geuss its right....hopefully i can get some of these emotions out and i wont go completly insane......well to all my friends, i love you.

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ahhhhhhhhhhhhh [02 Feb 2006|08:11pm]
[ mood | joyous ]

omg im just posting to show everyone my like majorly adorably cute icon!!!!!!!! I know its from an oldish game but i loved that game and plus its just to friggin cute! (insert cute happy face here)

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yoyoyo [02 Feb 2006|07:10pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

I be at the son's house y'all!!! and NOONE I mean NOONES online!!!! goddamn you people!!!!!!! I needs connections!!!! oh oh wait!!!!!!!!!! davids talkin to me! yaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!! finally human via computer interaction!!! goddamn! allisons house is so freakin chilly full!!!!!!!!! its like a big fancy cave!!!!!!!!! yea well I geuss im out... pieces mon freunde!!!!!!!!

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yohoyoho [25 Jan 2006|04:46pm]
[ mood | eh ]

oi oi oi oi. I gots me myspace all niftyd out by me friend tuffany....Its not totaly finished yet so yea.... I think im gonna work on it more on friday at davids house. if thats okay with him <3. god why do people do this? you know, write on lj and my space? its so pointless. I mean I see the point in it letting your friends know whats going on and stuff, but whats the point if none of your friends care? and its even more stupid for me, considering I dont even own a computer and I have to be like nomadic and use my firends. wich totaly makes me feel like shit, cuz I always feel like I'm using them or whatever....
bah. blast these conundromcys.
Oh, I am soooo happy germans oer ! I hated it!!! I am totaly going back to french next year.... ewll tout alors mon amis!!!!!!!!

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the world is falling down.... [24 Jan 2006|06:46pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

I had a crappy day today.... Mr. dempsy called me down to his office and gave me shit.... Im tired of this.
I HAVE FUCKING BIPOLAR DISORDER OKAY! I'm different from normal kids, I have fucking problems!!!! FUCK!! I just want the world to leave me alone except for my friends. Im tired of this shit... I just want to run away or sleep for a long time. I just want to live.. I dont want to deal with this other shit. all this superficial shit. I dont want to have to care about looks or technology or money. I just want to LIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!

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oh the blahs that be. [21 Jan 2006|10:55pm]
[ mood | content ]

I'm at my goober of a friend alloson's house. you may or maynot know her. Allison Morriarty? she has mad long hair and is ussually like extremely quite. she is sooooo cool though. esspecially when you get to know her. she's also like a super gamer freak like me so it's awsome. we talk about gamage like constinly in our notes and on the phone. and when we're together we almost only play games. its awsome. we were up all night last night playing shit. way past midnight. I dont know what time we stopped, but after that we watched the two towers, me saying just about every other line.
speaking of lines... theres this new play coming up, tryouts on mon and tues....im so nervous cause you have to be able to speak in a british accent. I've been working on mine all weekend... watching shaun of the dead and Austin Powers.... but it still comes out like crap.... i might not even do it... theres gonna be a film making club starting friday so im gonna join that, so no matter what happens with the play, I can always cure the acting bug that way...
uggggggggggg i tried making my myspace and shit, but I dont know how to do anything, not to mention i dont have any pictures. i tried using pics ash has of me but i couldn't get onto her photobucket.im gonna ask one of you pimps out there who has one to help me kay? like maybe you david............. well love!!!!!! and bye....

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long long timey no typey [13 Jan 2006|03:23pm]
[ mood | discontent ]

what up fools. it's been like a million years since I last updated this shiz. I've got an email address now in case anybody cares..... It's Da_freaklover@yahoo.com But I still dont have a computer.... how sad is that? well anyho I'm also starting a Myspace since like all my friends have them and I want to keep in touch with them, esspecially with peeps like finney who moved and such. *sigh* I'm trying to do the picture thing... its such crap!! it's taking for freaking ever mon!!!! jesus! well whatever, just try and contact me if ye be me freunde. danke.

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such fricken bull [17 Sep 2005|08:09am]
[ mood | dirty ]

The most bullshitiest thing happened today. Tifany spent over a day downloading final fantasy advent children. and geuss what? IT WASNT EVEN AND ANIME MOVIE!!!!!!!!! It was some shitty foreighn movie or some shit!!!! Someone has a sick sick mind messin with peoples mind like that, specially with ff fans man. They can be crazy foos. Oh well, at least I got to chill an stuff over here and such. Funfun. I've been making people on this wrestling game matt bought like a week ago. Its really cool. I'm making a faction called the 'Hellbourne something....' yeah so far I just have two people this neato chicky demone Named kiatra frim japan who has these really really nifty pointed ears and stuff. And this cloud demony guy name rengeiki. hes an oni and really scarey like. omigod im talking like such a little kid today, jesus christ. well i geuss im out for now.. oh shit i just remembered... finney's moving away to Pennsilvania..... fuckin shit shyt.Im gonna miss her soooooo goddamn fuckin mush its not even funny......fihgidshuvhofihgiubhuodhg baH shyt snickers. im funkin out more than a pregnant womans bely button bitches.

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at the daves [16 Aug 2005|06:29pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

I'm at the David miesters hizzie.He gave me a bunch of pics oh me. I'm making three collages one of friends, one of family, and one of me. am i too vain, making one for myself?I dont know....well im out, Pieces.

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from Bailey [12 Aug 2005|07:19pm]
[ mood | ouch ]

1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
- on my side from when i once accidentally stabbed myself with a fork.

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
- posters

3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE?
- silver and blue but it doesnt matter, no minutes

4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LIKE TO LISTEN TO?
- metal, punk, rap, classic rock, and psychopathic nonsense

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
- 1:00 am

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
- for my damn period to stop

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS AT TIMES?
- having a place to go. oh and flirting with kuthi, teehee.

8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION?
- my cat

9. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL?
- rasberries

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
- only in places like filenes for some reason.

11. IF YOU DIED TOMORROW:
- id hope everyone would be there for me.

12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
- Matt

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE COLOGNE / PERFUME?
- indian oils

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
- long, curly oh and i dig guys with blue hair.

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO AT?
- at a video game expo.

16. DO YOU LIKE PORN?
- gothic and hentai

17. WHAT ARE YOUR FIVE FAVORITE MOVIES?
- star wars, kevin smith movies, slc punk, donnie darko, and robs movies.

18. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF GOING FOR VACATION?
- japan or canada

19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
- matt

20. DO YOU SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE?
- en francais

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU (OF THE OPPOSITE SEX ?)
- a bracelet

22. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE SINGER(s)
- Jon Davis

23. FAVORITE BAND(s)
- KoRn,ummmmmmm.......other band?

24. WHAT KIND OF BOOKS DO YOU LIKE TO READ?
- Fantasy and realistic fiction

25. FAVORITE DESSERT:
- Chocolate

26. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR COFFEE?
- too much sugar

27. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE QUOTE ?
- "you choose to belong, i choose to be lost"

28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
- thats how i work.

29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
- kill yourself. haha scared ya!

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
- 66

31. BLONDES, REDHEADS OR BRUNETTES?
- brunattes

32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN?
- used to be ashleys but her number changed.

33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
- posers assholes homophobes haters people who say things i like are stupid, oh and my bother.

34. HAVE YOU EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
- no, that would make me think too much about how much it sucks to be them.
35. WHO IS YOUR CURRENT CRUSH?
- Kuthi :-D, gotta way me too!!!

36: WHAT IS YOUR WORST FEAR?
- waiting forever for someone to come get me.

37: SAY SOMETHING TO SOMEONE YOU HAVEN'T SEEN/TALKED TO IN AWHILE:
- im sorry mike

38: HAVE YOU EVER SAID "I LOVE YOU" AND NOT MEANT IT?
- not really.

39: WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS SURVEY?
- chilling with michelle and david, watched michelle get ready for her date.

40. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
- ew gross

41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
- cuz i love Bailey!

42. WHAT DO YOU LIKE ON YOUR PIZZA?
- just cheese

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thnx kuthi [12 Aug 2005|07:16pm]
[ mood | cynical ]

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.
I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.
I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.
We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.
I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.
I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.
I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.
I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.
We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.
I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.
I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.
I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.
I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.
I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.
I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me.
I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.
I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

REPOST THIS IF YOU BELIEVE THAT HOMOPHOBIA IS WRONG.

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behold i talk again [10 Aug 2005|05:55pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]

we went to noahs ark ade agina, this time it was open. that place is so very freakin ghetto its unbelievable. every other machine says out of order on it. the popcorn machine looked like the popcarn was like eighty years old. the only game worth playing was of course ddr. itt was fun till for some reason the two player thing wasnt working so we could only go one at a time, it kind of sucked. oh well, i got some exercise, it was worth it. i love everyone, and ill love you all more if one of you buys me a damn chinese food.......

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at davids [10 Aug 2005|03:29pm]
[ mood | ditzy ]

im at davids house. having fun i sposed. im no longer in a killing myself mode at the moment, which is good. we were gonna go to noahs ark ade but it doesnt open till four. i met this kid named zack today, he drove us around it was cool cept i got car sick cuz he's a crazy driving fool. oh yeah, mikes down here for the day visiting. and now that im into the psychopathic nonsense that be oh the ashlie, i realised somthing, he looks strangley like Blaze.....hmmmmm....welll im out.


Pieces.......

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im bipolar [31 Jul 2005|08:48pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

i thought about killing myself again today. i saw hallucinations and saw things that made me crazy. i dont know whats going on, i feel like the only one who understands is rob. i love you rob....

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drama peep drama [25 Jul 2005|07:41pm]
[ mood | curious ]

i know i updated not too long ago but i thought i would again anyways. rob and candy dont have lj's so im gonna tell everyone whats going on, dont tell them. theyre in the bathroom right now talking about there relationship or something. candy really really wants rob back and rob has no idea what he wants, hence the whole talking thing. i think they should go back out. what do y'all think? ill have like a poll. everyone say either yes they should or no okay? and lie i already said,,,,DONT TELLL THEM!!!!!!!

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